so i got fired from my old job and found a new one the same day! i was proud of myself in accomplishing a simple task fast. but now i have to keep my job.
so i have recently signed up for a depression study and i will be perscibed a medication to take for a year. and i get paid for it as well, im not sure though when i start because i have to pass the urine sample. they say i have a tranquilizer in my system and i have to weight 48 hours before i give another sample. its weird...and a little scary....anyways if i pass i get a prescription of an anti depressant and take it to make me feel better.
i was diagnosed depressed a while back and now i wanna see after a couiple years what has changed ive never had much consulting since i was on meds and its numbing to me now.
i wanna learn more about what i can do to make myself feel better and have a better outlook.
so now that i have a great job and have a great stability for the moment and things are going well.
but weirdly this is the longest time i havent had a boyfriend. i mean i have a bunch of guys that are great friends of mine but nothing of a pure commitment. haha i know it sounds weird but i miss having a best friend that i can confide in and get comfort from. im alone in nyc anyways its kinda sad.
i have my friend emilies college friend here staying with me for a while which is nice to have company. and we are having a good time but its not the same. I try to be independant and on my own but i see couples walk around NY all happy and i dont have that and it makes me sad.
it's emphasis that i am alone and dont have soembody to be happy with.
