The days i spend alone

Everyone has a day that they spend to themselves and just reflect on there week, month,year. What they have accomplished And how they want to move forward.

These days are important.  It can help you understand your self better and why you make choices. 

We all know Valentine's day is coming up and we want to be happy and in love.  I could say this "holiday" is all corporate and blown way out of proportion. But that sounds kind of a downer right.

We should have a great day and be happy and feel loved.  Go out to dinner or a good movie. Not a chick flick (ladies), let's Not put our men through a tear jerker and hope that guys pick up on the not so subtle gestures made by the main male actor.

No instead you should see a movie that you both wanna see,.and laugh together not cry.it's funny that women still need to be reminded on what guys don't want.

sooo much free time.

I think i have way to much time on my hands. after getting let go from my job ive beent rying to get babysitting job and job. and yeah its good for the moment but i would rather have a full time job that i could enjoy and could still have fun as a young girl living in the city. nothing like the show sex int he city trust me im not that type of girl or have that many girl friends.

in actuality i am so free and open minded. but a broke girl in the city counting her change int he drawer to see if she can buy bottle of body wash. or even being able to eat a meal. there are alot of job jsut laying off poeple the economy sucks and the only skill is to do hair. but does that make me any less capable to be a receptionist assistant w/e. nope but people judge by the skills you have on paper and not in the head. if a personal resume is a paper than i wanna challenge that. people with tattoos all over get judged on looks but there are soo many smart people who have tattoos. they have bachelor degrees w.e and they cant get a job cause of there looks. but a dumb blonde who has no brains but looks to bring in a crowd to a bar can get the job on the spot! society now a days is so ass backwards and its been like this for a while but it gets worse and worse each year.

from previous work experience. i have handled bitches who think they know it all on a calm and level head. those people who others would rather not handle they gave them to me to keep company in a salon. people skills check.

i also handled people who are ill and disabled. nothing you could throw at me would make me cringe or say no. others well they would say hey clare can you take that client for so and so cause i don't wanna deal with them today. i always say yes, make sure things are in order and things run smoothly.

so you take that kind of skill but if i were to put hta ton my resume people would read it as too much or an over achiever. paper is dispossable and peopel dont care what happends to it after you put it in that trash just like people.

when did people start throwing others away like paper. have we really become so disposable that soon we our selves will need to be recycled and saved. well that just sounds dirty!

oh well that's a thought to ponder. right now im gunna play with my puppy and kitty and try to capture adorable cute moments to put on face book and share how awesome they are. oh and talk to my new amazing boyfriend. sex and city marathon is good. lol

you gotta love new york!

Back in the day.....

Even after high school I would have never thought that I would live in NYC on my own, have great friends and be doing my thing. But back when I was stuck in a room with desks all lined up in a square and a teacher reading a page in a book, about something I was suposse to have read..before all of that happen. I was in middle school,  I was a little girl just happy to be going back to a public school. System. Strange right.  After boarding school, all I wanted at that time was to be home and with the friends I grew up with. In hopes that they hadn't forgotten me, since I was never very good at keeping in touch. 

And then once I got back into high school like a normal girl would. I could not wait to get out. I tried everything to get put of school, classes.  I was a good kid but was never able to sit long enough to Have the information put into my head. I wanted to be free.  Reason. Being cause I thought well, I'm not going to college why sit in high school. Anymore.

Well after I graduated I was finally able to let go. Not really.  I was ready for summer jobs and summer relaxation to begin. But my mother had other plans.

So after a long trip and fighting I moved out of small town Madison and to the big city. Like in the movies I thought haha. Nope it was to more school to more training.  Again more fighting to be free.

Now that I am. And I'm happy. I wanna have something solid....am I too young to think that way.