Saturday, December 19, 2009

Returned to the States


So i am Home! the USA that is.

I was sitting on the plane from Arusha to Amsterdam, there was no effect on me that i was really going home. as i waited for my second plane from Amsterdam to the Newark airport. it finally started to sink in that i would not be returning to Africa for a long time, or if at all. i sat on the plane and waited for the take off. I was asleep for most of the flights back home. but i had recurring thoughts of my family in Africa and all that i would miss in the coming weeks.

Just the other day i was doing some chores and i was going to empty and reload the dishwasher....i was in shock that i didn't have to do the dishes by hand. although i wouldn't complain if i did. It was weird having so much more here in the states.

On the Monday after getting home i was talking with my mother about getting a kitten for a while. so when monday came around i decided to start the hunt to find the perfect kitten for my Christmas present.

after being in Africa where pets are not common at all, coming home to a puppy and getting a kitten that are not flea infested and can sleep on your bed and you take care of is great.
so now i have come to relize how much i love animals. From here i will be doing an internship in, NYC working with Art Start a creative center for the underprivileged youths. So i look forward to working in the city and hope that more opportunities come up after i finish my travels.

I am not done yet.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

how do you say goodbye?

i finally found internet after my blackberry decided that nolonger will it work. oh well, i can survive.

so my last week with my family (the safari family that is) was not so eventful i played wiht the 6 dogs and the one puppy, relaxed with my thoughts and packed my things for Zanzibar. i think i can say that was very stressful and i knew that my bags would be over weight so i decided to make it three bags instead of 2. BIG MISTAKE!

it has yet to really hit me that i am not going back to my families and that i will not be seeing my brotehrs and sisters forever (hopefully not so). so much of my happiness through thses months was wiht them and the great adventures and laughs we experienced together. i can never forget that and they are my second family that i will always love and hold cloose to my heart.

i have so many photos that i cant wait to share. and i also have so many gift for family and my families here have tought me so much wisdom tha ti want to share it.

i may have also found my true passion which is for animals, as i have said i played wiht the 6 flea infested dogs and i have a story of one of the.

so there are 6 dogs at the safari house,

1-prince
2-bubbie!
3-tips (puppy)
4-old man
5-rascal
6- no name given

so my favorite ones that i useually played with was prince,bubbie, and tips. so one day i decided tha ti needed to check on my secondary project taht many people and freiends help make happen (THANK YOU!). so as i was heading out of the front gate, one of the sleepy dogs woke up and followed me out. Prince, was usually always up early and headed out when i did, so it was not unusual. but after leaving the front gate and heading to my main road, he continued to follow, untill he finaly layed down at oen point did i think ok he will only go this far. so i kept walking up to the main road to meet a fellow intern to walk to school with. but before i was at the road, i heard a little pitter patter of feet behind me and low and behold was prince, rubbing against my leg and nibbiling my ankles. we walked from the main road wiht my fellow intern to the school wiht prince right on my side and the occasional stop and sniff. it was the sweetest thing that he did.

any way, i have too many thoughts on all that i have enjoyed while beiong here that i can not share them all at this one time. But i will say that being in Africa for these three months has made such a great inpact on me that i shall never forget it nor shall i ever want to. I will say that i hope to come back and see my families some day and have the same great time that i have had here now.

I will always have a home here they tell me and that if i do come back that i always have a becd to sleep in and food to eat for free.

Monday, November 23, 2009

18 days till im in the USA

Yeah, it is starting to hit me that I'm leaving soon, I said good bye to my students and it was sad cause we just started to enjoy each other out side of the class room. We had fun and played games but I didn't have enough time to really see the children out side of the teaching zone. I got hugs and good byes from them, I will miss them. But now I have to grade over 100 exam papers for math, so far the 11 that I started with nobody got more than 8 points total out of 100 possible points. I wanted to cry. Today I played with the dogs and sat with them in the rain, I enjoy having them around they are sweet, although the kids here may think I'm a little nutty cause they have fleas and ticks, but I take a shower here an actual shower.

Did I mention I switched families, this one is very american sonon stop water internet etc.

So I'm sad to leave my baba godfrey not my new family since I'm only here for 9 more days or so. I can't wait to go home though, but I'm almost reluctant to want to get on the plane, my family here is soo kind and sweet that Africa has become my home. I'm in such like a mode here that I feel like I belong here I may have to come back soon.

18 days till im in the USA

Yeah, it is starting to hit me that I'm leaving soon, I said good bye to my students and it was sad cause we just started to enjoy each other out side of the class room. We had fun and played games but I didn't have enough time to really see the children out side of the teaching zone. I got hugs and good byes from them, I will miss them. But now I have to grade over 100 exam papers for math, so far the 11 that I started with nobody got more than 8 points total out of 100 possible points. I wanted to cry. Today I played with the dogs and sat with them in the rain, I enjoy having them around they are sweet, although the kids here may think I'm a little nutty cause they have fleas and ticks, but I take a shower here an actual shower.

Did I mention I switched families, this one is very american sonon stop water internet etc.

So I'm sad to leave my baba godfrey not my new family since I'm only here for 9 more days or so. I can't wait to go home though, but I'm almost reluctant to want to get on the plane, my family here is soo kind and sweet that Africa has become my home. I'm in such like a mode here that I feel like I belong here I may have to come back soon.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Rainy day

I got up late today :-( not a good start so I was rushing out the door, when I realized that there was RAIN. Grabbed a cup of tea and tried to drink it but instead I burned my lounge :-(. Hurried to school only to find that I really didn't need to be here! because I didn't have an exam to watch over and It was very slow with students too. So now I'm sitting in the teachers room alone walked into classes but not much I can do. Its poring rain and there is gross flying magit things all around and Frogs all around. Two things I do not like. I'm cold, maybe ill run to get my other jacket and a cup of tea.... I only live across the street. Well in the mean time I am reading and watching some weird news thing. I bought some gifts the other day and today I go back to pick up some more things. I'm so lonely my baba is hard at work I will survive. I think I will fetch my jacket and some food. Yay!

Monday, November 16, 2009

the last 25 days.

The days are winding dow for me here. This week the students have exams so I don't do much and next week we just say good bye to the students. I may cry. I haven't made friends with my students but I have so much fun with them and seeing them work hard together. I am so sad that I will be leaving my baba and brother to be with a new family because my family is leaving. I just am sad to be leaving them. But when I get home I will be happy to be in my own bed again.

There are so many new things to share show. I just want to get home but I'm not really wanting to leave my new family here. So many great funny memories.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Mount Meru hiking weekend.

Mount Meru, a tall mountain but not as tall as Killimanjaro! So this past weekend,our group was to hike iT (not all the way thank goodness) just to the first camp site a good 5 hour hike but we made it in 3 hrs. Straight up with the occasional leveling with altitude. When we finally got to the camp site it was sooo cold! We were instructed to pack light so I did so one outfit long under wear and little essentials. But apparently too light, I was freezing that night wrapped tight in my sleeping bag all bundled up as much as possible. The next morning camp and after breakfast and packing we were off.

Point: on the way up and down we had porter (people who carry cases) so on the way up they had my pack.

So when we left the site I decided to take my pack since we were going down! BIG mistake, a little more than halfway, my knees were shaking more than usual my ankles were weak and I fell down hill. One hand cut a tiny bit. I was in the back of the groupt so our leader bandaged meup, and the guard on the back was so worried that after he made it his job to watch over me and make sure I was ok and if I slipped he grabbed my pack and picked me up before I hit the ground. His name Joshua, he is soo kind. After that I made it down and was feeling a lot better.

Monday, November 9, 2009

30 Days

So I'm so excited to get home. Last night my mama here left for a trip :-( I miss her she said good bye to me because she won't be home till I leave! I wanted to cry. Any way I'm at school currently about to drink tea. I want to be with my friends. The interns are nice but I relize more and more how different we are. I'm gunna be happy to be home and have my friends around.

Saw a puppy the other day! Oh and my leader (nicole) got a puppy here.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

dear american airlines

Decided to give my book another read and after every time it gets better. Very upset that I didn't bring my augusten burroughs books. Probably for the best though it may have put me to a sad depression and made me think of home more. Oh well going to try and hunt for more books here this weekend maybe. I can try to put up photos I have here on my phone but I'm not sure it will work.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

the week of the circus

As I sit in the couch in our arusha house with the other interns here I'm more and more reminded of how I don't get along with these students. I see what they see as humor to what I see and we are way too different to get along. So I gave my family the frisbee and they went crazy so every day I have to play with the little boys oh well its nice. I'm missing my puppy and Dan and all my friends and the adventures we go on. Although some times I may get in trouble cause I have fun. Ill be back in December and will have so much to catch up on!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

days that i teach!

So at first when I got my schedule I thought that I might be sharing it with another teacher in Form 3 but I was mistaken. I am currently and will be for the time here the only math teacher to all of Form 3 that is broken down to a-d I teach everyday. A 40 minute block followed by a 80 minute block and then tea and my day is done. So when I entered my first class of the day I was overwhelmed thinking that I was un prepared and I would be mocked by other teachers. No, I wads wrong the kids tried to help me understand what I said and some times would translate what I said into kiswahili. So I felt better. Then the next class it was not like my first. But I'm working on making it work. Its hard, but its life. After school today I went on a walk because I needed to get out of the house and wanted to visit some other people around. The food here is great just really fatty and im trying to not gain weight. Fully days ahead!

Friday, October 2, 2009

the first week at the school.

I survived! Had one melt down but got over it fast. Hahaha so I was suposse to start teaching on wednesday. But I hadn't gotten my assigned material to teach! So we all started monday of the coming week. So *drum roll* I teach! Mathe to form 3 kids. It would be the equivalent to a 8th or 9th grader. Also they changed my topic about 3 times so far. I'm going to be doing geometric progression.... Go figure. Its not too hard it took me a while to understand it my self but I conquered. Also my family is soo nice to be honest though. I don't feel like I'm in africa I feel at home with the food and family and the technology in the house.

Food: cookies and mini cakes, pasta, rice and beans, soups.
Tech: computer with no internet. Occasional running water, we all have cell phones. Cd players, dvd player, flat TV with many channels!
I have the occasional car. And we shop for so many things!
I'm happy but I'm not sure I'm getting the experience I expected. My other "friends" here have either no electricity at all or a few lights. But I have a lot. Its nice... But I don't know. I washed clothes today in a bin and hung them up so that's new but its not hard. I cook occasionally on a gas stove and have a squat toilet that I'm use to since china. I go back to my group home tomorow and spend the night.

The people are nice but they all seem to have thingsbin common and I'm just really different from them so I don't talk much.


Oh damn I forgot to mention I witnessed two canning today that is how the students are reprimanded here. I'm really shocked, only because the teachers laughed at them and saw it as a game! They asked us if we wanted a try, because one of my other people with me was laughing... Me and the other were in shock I think. Not to mention the teacher hitting them was a mother to one of the travelers (not mine). Its very different here.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

safari and emotions

So for my first week here I've had some interesting times. So far the kids are decent but nobody I would hangout after this program. Am I homesick no. Afraid of teaching, no. But the family is a little worry sum. I am not sure if I can be with these kids. I have to make it through this and think positive. The safari. A wonderful exciting and learning experience I have seen everything but a hyena and a king lion. I saw so many animals. Also went camping and had great meals time for work. On lesson plans

Thursday, September 17, 2009

airport!

I'm sitting at the gate! With fellow travelers! Yay! But I'm not awake damn me! So I'm sitting here thinking about being chaty but I can't!

Emotions run deep

So today is the big day I'm all packed on the road and there's n turning back from my choice that I have made. I have to move forward and face the upcoming emotions that I will go through. I know that I'm tough and can make it but I am still a little kid at times wanting her puppy or her bed. Ok, maybe her mommy too. But I don't want to hit that wall now. When I hit the gate I think it will really hit me that I'm going and I can't look back. I'm excited and curious! Wish me luck and hope I didn't make a mistake.

Monday, September 14, 2009

2 DAYS

I am 2 days away from leaving the USA and being put into a village of Africa, tanzania for three months! im excited! im all packed and all i have left to do is spray my cloths with Bug repellent i have emailed all of my fellow travelers how we will hope to meet in the Amsterdam airport and get food cause i will be getting in at 7 am! My body clock will be going insane! maybe it will become normal! Im gunna be putting up photos soon of me leaving and landing!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Yay!

This evening I met with a fellow traveler and talked over a lot of things from what we packed to who our favorite book authors were.

She shared with me how she deferred her college and where she's going... I am not surewere she said. Any way wee had fun but now its crunch time.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

what happens happens...

Today, i woke up and thought about all the things i had to get for my trip. nothing major but little things. i wonder if this is my nerves.

Im constantly asked are you nervous or scared? I always answer no. because for me this is another trip. yes ill be away from my family for a while but im all grown up! im not gonna cry myself to sleep wanting my Mommy. i have spent time away from home alot. so this shouldn't be any different.

i dont know maybe i am scared, maybe im scared that i made a wrong decision in saying yes to this? well i cant take it back now. i just hope that im not alone in these times to come, all the emotions that will be coming along with this trip!

I did talk to other travelers that would be in the group. they all seem nice and excited. will i get along with them? there are 11 of us. and the majority is girls. Now i am not a sexist, i just cant stand the girly shit that go along with being a girl! the only the emotions that we all feel but the drama that we all want a taste for. yeah we are in denial to it, saying" oh how i hate drama!" but then as soon as a g/f of yours tells u a juicy tale of another girl or couple, you cant get enough! you strive to know more details even the minor ones that nobody cares about. we all had our moments like that.

As for me i hate girls. ok hates to strong, i dislike the girl generation that i have been brought into. (better) i am a girl yes so i should have at least one good girl friend that i can confide in right? WRONG! i have no girls that are friends at all, all of my friends are guys.

now you may say, clare that's normal all girls have guy friends. Wrong again, not like me! i basically am one of the guys. i do what ever it is they do (legally) we go out and just goof off! i might as well have a sex change cause yes, i do check out girls with them! (that's what im good at). they ask things about girls and what to ge tan insight about them but i have to remind them that im not your typical girl, i am so far from the regular that i may be my own category that has a few others in but were hidden!

So yeah back to my topic of the group and the majority being girls. there are about 3 or 4 guys in this group all of which seem pretty nice. the girls that i have talked to all have a bubbly attitude. now im not saying its wrong for them to be who they are no, i am saying that in my eyes they seem to be all girly. im not into the all girlie stuff, im into girls that are (not meaning i have crushes on girls) that are just....well not girlie. Tom boyish i guess.

Im not expecting all the girls to be this way and im hoping that hey aren't as if they were it would make my stay a little rougher, i just hope they all have some down to earth features that i can go to. we will see. Oh and my flight issue is all fixed now =)

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

A week away till i leave.

My name is Clare, I'm just a high school graduate with no direction and no idea what she likes.

Interest: Music, Photography, Animals.....at this point in my life i can't see myself having a career in these fields.
The Beginning:
I am lucky to have such a great mother who never forced me into the school fields, she gave me the opportunity to explore the world threw out my life. So when i was a Junior in High School and i was starting to think about what schools i would apply to, it dawns on me that all the schools that seem interesting to me require a high SAT Score. This was a probably as i didn't do so well on them.

So i sat down with my mother and had a discussion of what i was looking for in a school. and i had no clue as to what i wanted to do. I saw my sister at school and i had no desire to be back in school atmosphere, since High School years weren't great. She told me of another option that one of her clients, children had done, its was called a Gap Year program. This Program consisted of an alternative activity that has both educational and worldly adventures.

I did some research on the different kinds of "gap Year" programs that were avalible.
I was shocked to see that they were all over the world. so i decided to look in countries i was interested in. (i.e Australia, Africa, New Zeland) anything i could think of. i found a few that were interesting. such as zoo keeping and AIDS help.

My mom told me about a fair that was taking place in NY and it was similar to a college fair just designated towards Gap Year Programs. when inside the room I took every brochure available and looked each over to see what they did where they were going how long they stayed.

My mother being a chatter box (in the good way) she found a stand that said Global Routes. she asked where they were going and what they did just like me. She heard what they had to say and the next thing i know, my mom is pulling me over to the table so that i can talk to them.

Im always reluctant to do things that my mother recommends for me cause some of the time it sounds all good but when i dig deeper its not what i want, so i followed her to the table hesitantly. the people i was talking to at the time were very welcoming, and were curious as to why i was going to do a gap year. I explained that my mother had the idea for me and i had to agree with her then that taking the year off to travel or experience new things would be good, to not e studying and not relax but be adventurous. They then explained to me the countries they offered and what each program did.

Internship as a Teacher. that was the program that was available, for my age group and length. I was excited! I would be a teacher with students helping them better there education. i was excited. the next step was for me to fill out the application and choose my country. i had two choices. Thailand, Africa out of the four that i was interested in the other two were Peru and another i cant remember.

Thialand, i had never been but it interest me the religon and the life style.
Tanzania, Africa i have wanted to go for many reasons. but i wasn't sure if i was ready to go. I saw Africa with sad eyes in my head. i wasn't sure if i was ready to see sad eyes for three months.

my first choice was Thailand and my second was Africa. i sent the application in and waited.

2 weeks later i get a phone call from the company saying that they recieved my application and were excited to have an interview. Next they asked if i was ok to be transferd to Africa instead of Thialand. they didn't have enough spots filled in on the Thailand program so we all changed over to Africa. This was a shock to my system, because i had just finished reading books on Thailand and was all excited, and it was 2 months till i left so i had to re adjust and fast.

I agreed to the interview and to the change of Thailand to Africa. I was then on the road to the company headquarters to meet with a person to be interviewed and made sure i was a good candidate for the program. They asked me again why a gap year and once again i explained to them tha ti wasnted a break from studying but not a vacation. Then we had a discussion about hte way the program was run, from week one to three months later when i woul dbe returning. I Understood the way they layed it out and why it was a good way, it gave us the interns a chance to get to know one another and get use to the lifestyle that we would be living and work on our Swahili and teaching skills.

The Program:

In-Country Orientation (First Week)
You meet your leader along with your fellow teachers upon arrival in the host country and spend your first week together delving into the local culture and landscape through excursions, language classes, cross-cultural training and teaching workshops. While exploring the natural and cultural wonders of your surroundings, your time is simultaneously spent preparing for life in your host community: you design your first lesson plans, practice teaching, brush up on the local language and customs and discuss strategies to help you acclimate to rural village life in another culture. This practical preparation for teaching and thorough introduction to the country align to create the perfect foundation for your experience ahead.

Teaching Placement & Homestay (6 Weeks, summer program; 10 Weeks, fall and spring programs)
This is the heart of your experience. For the majority of your program you live in a rural village with one other intern and teach in the community’s primary or secondary school. Taking on your own classes, you may teach English, math, science, or environmental education. You may also coach sports, tutor, or lead art and music workshops. During this time you live with a host family, joining them in meals, chores, and simple time of leisure. While your primary responsibility is teaching, we ask all interns to initiate an Independent Project. These projects may take on many different forms: building a library or playground for your school, facilitating health education workshops, painting a world map, organizing an after-school program, starting a reforestation project or initiating a recycling program. What you choose to do is dependent upon the needs of your local community as well as your own interests. This is a wonderful opportunity to extend yourself outside of the school environment in a unique and meaningful way. Some weekends are spent with your leader and fellow interns, sharing challenges and successes, collaborating on projects together or venturing out on a fun excursion. Others are enjoyed in your community, going to the market, traveling to nearby festivals, working on your Independent Project or simply relaxing at home with your host family.

Travel Adventures (Final Week)
A final week of travel enables your group to explore places within your host country of great natural beauty and cultural significance. Here, you and your group begin to consider the joys and challenges of coming home. This provides valuable time for you to reflect on your experiences and prepare for your return while celebrating your great contributions and discoveries.

After the Interview was over i got a informal acceptance to the program! i was thrilled! Africa got more appealing day after day!

Packing:
3 weeks later i had to start getting things together because i had just gotten the packet of information that was atleast a good 30 pages long! i was intimidated.

so here i am after getting my visa and international insurance and teacher clothes and regualar clothes and learning my Swahili, and the fundraising! that took a while. I am here! a week away from my departure to Tanzania Africa.