Today, i woke up and thought about all the things i had to get for my trip. nothing major but little things. i wonder if this is my nerves.
Im constantly asked are you nervous or scared? I always answer no. because for me this is another trip. yes ill be away from my family for a while but im all grown up! im not gonna cry myself to sleep wanting my Mommy. i have spent time away from home alot. so this shouldn't be any different.
i dont know maybe i am scared, maybe im scared that i made a wrong decision in saying yes to this? well i cant take it back now. i just hope that im not alone in these times to come, all the emotions that will be coming along with this trip!
I did talk to other travelers that would be in the group. they all seem nice and excited. will i get along with them? there are 11 of us. and the majority is girls. Now i am not a sexist, i just cant stand the girly shit that go along with being a girl! the only the emotions that we all feel but the drama that we all want a taste for. yeah we are in denial to it, saying" oh how i hate drama!" but then as soon as a g/f of yours tells u a juicy tale of another girl or couple, you cant get enough! you strive to know more details even the minor ones that nobody cares about. we all had our moments like that.
As for me i hate girls. ok hates to strong, i dislike the girl generation that i have been brought into. (better) i am a girl yes so i should have at least one good girl friend that i can confide in right? WRONG! i have no girls that are friends at all, all of my friends are guys.
now you may say, clare that's normal all girls have guy friends. Wrong again, not like me! i basically am one of the guys. i do what ever it is they do (legally) we go out and just goof off! i might as well have a sex change cause yes, i do check out girls with them! (that's what im good at). they ask things about girls and what to ge tan insight about them but i have to remind them that im not your typical girl, i am so far from the regular that i may be my own category that has a few others in but were hidden!
So yeah back to my topic of the group and the majority being girls. there are about 3 or 4 guys in this group all of which seem pretty nice. the girls that i have talked to all have a bubbly attitude. now im not saying its wrong for them to be who they are no, i am saying that in my eyes they seem to be all girly. im not into the all girlie stuff, im into girls that are (not meaning i have crushes on girls) that are just....well not girlie. Tom boyish i guess.
Im not expecting all the girls to be this way and im hoping that hey aren't as if they were it would make my stay a little rougher, i just hope they all have some down to earth features that i can go to. we will see. Oh and my flight issue is all fixed now =)
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